Faith. Relationship. Career

Wednesday, 31 July 2013


I promised a second post on 'Let's Get Personal' and here it is. I have been contemplating whether or not to post on this specific topic as it's a tad bit too personal but I hope someone learns a thing or two.

From my previous posts, I'm sure some of you noticed that my tone had a bit of disappointment, pain, and hope (I hope). Well you are 100 percent right as I was nursing a broken heart at the time. I had just decided to move on from a relationship that wasn't right for me.

Some things happen in life and we ask ourselves "Does everything really happen for a reason". That was me a few years back. I remember when my friends used to call me an 'emotional wreck' lol. yea..that's the word they used. I hated that word so much because I thought I was so strong and no one could make me feel so helpless and vulnerable. The energy in and around me was so negative that I made very poor decisions in every area of my life. Today, I realize that though we make poor decisions, God always spins it in our favor.

One day, while I was back home with my family, I was feeling very emotional and my mom asked me what was wrong. I didn't want to respond because I just felt she couldn't possibly say anything that would ease my pain. However, I told her for the sake of it and she said to me "just rely on God" At that moment, I was just so over it that in my mind I said "ehen Mummy has come again with her 'God God' response oooo" I needed something more helpful and practical. I didn't realize the power in that statement she had made.

I had tried everything else and so I decided to just trust God like mummy said. Someway, somehow, she always seems to have the right words. It obviously didn't happen immediately. I remember being so emotionally and spiritually worn out that whenever I decided to pray, it felt like I was wasting my time. I desperately wanted God in my life but I felt so empty and undeserving of his attention. I had to tell myself "Just keep praying, God sees your heart and i'm sure He's listening" I would pray and hope for an answer though I didn't know what I wanted at the time.

Finally, after all the back and forth, the relationship ended. I had heard all the pieces of advice on the planet and analysed the issue over and over again but it obviously didn't make any sense to me at the time. I decided to focus on myself and build my character and while I was doing that, I made up my mind to start this blog. It was while writing about my experience, reading the bible and thinking about my next blog post that I found a true relationship with God. Since the day I started blogging till now, everything around me has been a lot healthier and I have made so much progress in every aspect of my life...still making.

I know so many people who are currently going through disappointments or have heavy decisions to make. Your story may be different from mine but there is only one solution...Just rely on God:)
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